Coming soon!

*Shopping for Sunglasses- Lessons learned about how we often view ourselves with the need to “fit”

*My Dream Valentines Day (Status: Single)- What I would love to do and plan for so that February doesn’t suck.

*Maybe I’ll write about all the things I’d love to do someday for Valentines day with my someone?

Adding more still (4/22/11):

* “Can you trust Me?”

*How I’m learning to love well. (around 4-22-11 ish)

*Getting to know who this God is I claim to love.

*Feeding my self value

*How God used Avril Lavgine to remind me of the gospel this morning. (4/22/11)

Also:

*I’d love to start a quote of the week type thing going.

*I’d love to “play solarium”  and find a picture each month that describes what I’m learning in life. Maybe I’ll explain, maybe I’ll let my followers figure it out.

And of course:

I’ll be posting recipes (that is NOT the right spelling), health and nutrition tips, music recommendations (should I have a day of the week and make this weekly?!), Book recommendations as they come, cafe/froyo/places recommendations as I come across them, Style ideas I’ve come across and love, and Organization tips I’ve found to be useful.

In general, I’m excited to explore what it means to be healthy and thriving in every aspect of life.

Thoughts?

{Other random thought that just came into my head:

*Should I add the words, “Living with a” to my blog title of, “Butterfly Heart?”}

Positive Pressure View

So I’ve found that pretty much for a fact, I am the personality type that, given enough pressure, will cave, not thrive. I’m way more likely to see myself as a failure and I just melt down. Then yesterday came. Somehow at work, we were missing two people and a manager is only capable of effectively covering one. For opening prep, I was called in to come in “early” which was really still later than I would had I been scheduled for opening prep. Basically, we were screwed. Company policy is to open fifteen minutes earlier than what the sign says if we can, and to do that we have to be done with prep and cleaning up after prep fifteen minutes before that. Instead, yesterday we were all still wrapping stuff up in between the first guests. Now one can easily look at this and say we failed. Somehow yesterday, I did not see it that way and instead saw it as a challenge: What good can I make out of this (ridiculously lousy situation)? Instead of weighing me down and getting me further behind, I let the “opportunity to fail” become the more realistic “There is no way it’s going to be the usual perfection that we strive for, so how can I still pull off success of getting prepped for the day as a whole, and how can I do that with excellence?” And it drove me, and encouraged me and made my day so much brighter than it would have been had I believed I had failed—and that that was the end of the story. For once I was able to let the pressure I faced that day be a positive force to push me past the bleak original forecast and forward into success.

What about you? Are you someone who thrives or crumbles under pressure?

First Ever WTE Giveaway!

My dear friend Emily is hosting a giveaway of a wreath from Sugar Money. Not only would you get an awesome wreath, but the cost of Emily buying the wreath would go towards this family’s adoption fund. So what are you waiting for?! Head over to Write Twenty Eleven and enter in the First Ever WTE Giveaway!.

THUNDER STORM!!!

Opening up my little sisters window

It’s raining outside,
And by “raining,” I mean it’s pouring so hard that streets outside have turned into rivers, the roof edges into waterfalls, and the sheets of water turn the air white and if I were driving, I wouldn’t be able to see much more than about five feet in front of me. There’s probably, most definitely, severe thunderstorm alerts on the TV and radio (which nobody really pays any attention to) and there may or may not be tornado warnings and watches in that mix.

Welcome to Floridian Summertime.

It’ll be hot, muggy and unbearable without the shelter of a/c, and then somewhere around mid afternoon/early evening, it’ll change almost instantly to windy torrents of showers and you never really know how long it’ll last before nature clears up again and acts like nothing happened; kind of like a toddler who snaps right out of their tantrum after getting what they want. This is why a seasoned Floridian always carries an umbrella during summertime; if not in their car, in their purse, or on their person. It’s why you walk into Target and the umbrella display is smack-dab in the middle of the entryway through the front doors.

Being my day off, today was the day I had planned to get my grocery running done, and perhaps, if there was a friend free (which no one seems to be ), go on an adventure, but alas, the thunder shaking the house and the tempestuous conditions outdoors make me hesitant to venture anywhere outside this house. Therefore, I’m doing some catch up on writing, blogging (you’re welcome, faithful followers), since I’ve been MIA in wordpress land, and maybe I’ll get to catch up with some friends long distance.

I can also enjoy the fact that now is the perfect opportunity for me to wear my fuzzy pants.

{I’ll insert a photo of those here}

I’d much rather be spending weather like this indoors with good company, but I’m going to look at this solitude as an opportunity for the things that have been pushed to the side in my eagerness to stay busy outside of a currently empty house. In the future I’ll have to plan ahead for an afternoon of board games or something.

What do you do on rainy days? Do you like to spend them by yourself or with friends? What are your favorite ways to pass the time when the weather has you stuck indoors?

♥

First solarium!

Today ill just post a doodle of mine I did last week that illustrates something I’m learning, and then ill write the full post later.

Who or what do I look to to define myself?

In the meantime, here is a couple of questions to ponder: What makes you valuable? Where did you draw from to reach that conclusion?

Blowing my Mind

Today I’m going to recommended that you check out this site: http://premiere.basicseries.com/
and watch each full 15 minute-ish film they’re putting up for free the next couple of days. Every 24 hours it gets replaced with a new one. I think at noon.

Go. do it. watch. Now!

Coffee shop in between this and that

Sitting to the side
By the window
Easily alone with my thoughts.
The sunshine warming my hair,
The A/C cooling my ankles.
Sundress covering my knees.
I throw my head back against the sill and stare at the ceiling. Enjoy the stillness of the unfinished rafters.
I have someone with me,
waiting, listening, watching me,longing to have me spill my heart,
But I often avoid it.
Sew shut my lips
Bite my tongue,
Because its oh so scary to come undone.
“Can we not talk about this?” I plead, even though my heart is desperately in need to.
I’m afraid of the mess the digging might lead to.
I daze out the window, I study the floor, I find a distraction
and go with it go with it.

Count the dust bunnies, jump on the back of the lovebug crawling on the glass pane, find a flaw to catch my attention,
Anything
Anything but the prick of pain that rips and aches in my soul.
Anything but the flaws inside; the tumor arye
That scares me.

Let’s avoid the problem
Pretend its not there
Pick at my fingernails
Play with my hair
And stay busy busy busy.

I don’t want this bowling ball of weight of reality
Growing heavy
So I keep it moving.

(When I’m left standing still its hard to hold onto. Hard to ignore that I don’t have a grasp on things.
I don’t have it all together as some may believe)

The truth is scary to tackle sometimes
Usually means that I’m wrong.
I mentally run forward and jumping off the cliff,
I say it. Cutting straight to the Chase,
I let go of the words as if they’re my last.
“I don’t trust you.”
Splash,
There it is.
All I’ve been thirsting for.
His face
The warmth of his smile
The soaking of his grace through me.
There it is
settling into my skin.
“What is that, my love? Say it again.”
“I…..don’t…… trust You…..I don’t trust that You are good, I don’t trust You to bless me.”
And He is not surprised.
I’m met. I’m understood.
I’m still welcome.
The wall breaks
I burst into tears.
“I can’t do this”
“I’m not forcing you to.”
“But I want to, I need You.”
“I know, don’t worry, I’ve got you!”
And He wraps me in His warm embrace
Im still stiff, but I hope to rest eventually
I’m still struggling
And wrestling
And rebelling with my wicked foolish heart.
I’m so glad that He loves me so.

Heyyy Starbucks lovers,

It's baaaack!

Today till the 15th (in the US and Canada) there’s a frappuccino happy hour from 3-5pm!

Check out Starbucks.com for the official details.   ♥

Mocha Coconut Frappuccino!

By the way, I’ve tried the new Mocha Coconut Frappuccino and it is INDEED delicious!

#If I could have this as a second sticky post, you know I would!